Atha: a term indicating auspicious beginning. It implies that there has been preparation for an auspicious and fruitful journey. (Yogainternational.com)
Anyone who knows me, knows that I've spent a great deal of my life trying to get from one place to another. I don't know the true reason behind it, maybe I should try therapy. I know that it is a constant in my life. That it has contributed to my success but also my downfall (at many times). I've known for months that going into this journey, I would need to take my foot off the gas completely. That driving with one foot rooted and the other lightly on the breaks truly wouldn't get me far. There was a calling to slow down. A few weeks ago I told most of my colleagues and family that there are going to be boundaries drawn this summer. A limit on my time and space. I recall my 200 hour and how determined I was to make it to the end of the program. Juggling work and babies and social obligations. I knew I loved yoga but didn't have the mental bandwidth to comprehend and soak in so much of it's beautiful detail.
I believe strongly in synchronicityand usually when I hear something multiple times in a day or week, I know it's my cue to listen harder. I had a podcast playing on the way to class this morning. (About biohacking because we all want cheat codes in life). During the podcast, the guest was speaking using ATP (adenosine triphosphate aka energy), as a form of currency. Utilizing it just as you would any other resource. So, during class when the intentions were being set and our job was to determine our own "energy management*, I knew it wasn't a fluke. It is a call to action by the universe. So here I am, sitting here with 15 other things to do, deciding in this moment that I will dedicate time/space/and energy to this practice, to *our* practice together.
I am choosing faith over fear, slow and intentional movement, breathing deeply and with/into passion. I know that there is time. There will always be space and opportunity. Now is the time to begin. I will embrace the in-between, the little moments, as I ease unto this practice. As I ease into these waters.